what are you to me?

What are you to me?
I search and wander for this.

I feel you in the warmth of the sun
I feel you in the wetness of water
You caress in the glow of your skin
I feel you in the lightness of this air.

I see you in the azure of the winter sky
I see you in the red of the mellifluous sunset
You are the vision of my living dreams
I see you in the dark of a moonless night.

I talk to you in the voice of silence
I talk to you in the rainbow of a prism
You speak the language of my soul
I talk to you in the sound of our rhythm.

I still search and ponder
What are you to me?

a prayer without a rhythm

I pray from you
With
Knees bent and arms raised
Eyes closed and mind open
Body firm and soul lax

I pray from you
Forgive
My digressions, my life
My improper list of choices
My selfless list of sins.

I pray from you
Bestow
Grace of which all you command
Honour when I shall meet you
Love as that you wish me to have.

I pray from you
Consider
The tears I hid deep beneath
The shame my eyes close within
The torment, the fire around my spirit.

I pray from you
Beautify
The life you gave me
The dreams I wish to see
The death I would love to die.

I pray from you,
I pray from you,
I pray from you,
O Lord, do not throw these worthless words,
These are all I have as I pray from you.

death and despair

As this world lies beyond repair
I wonder what is obvious but death and despair.

The silent screams of the dead
And the darkened lights of the grave
Pinch somewhere my numb soul
Being a coward makes me feel so brave.

All these souls soaked in blood
These eyes blinded by a gory din
Push forth my conscience in the open
And mask it with a darkly sheen.

As this world lies beyond repair
I wonder what is obvious but death and despair.

The sky becomes a grayish shade
With the clouds being painted red
As death rains a crimson shower
A lonely hope dreams of death instead.

Fear proclaims its promised land
And wins over each flailing heart
Life sags behind a dark curtain
And wonders, from where shall it begin a start.

As this world lies beyond repair
I wonder what is obvious but death and despair.

meaningless pursuit

I try so hard with the will of my heart
In my dreams, a novel ambition does start
My spherical aura is stretched to be oblong
In my meaningless pursuit of a soulful song.

In those silken eyes that glare at me
I focus so hard for a vision to see
I am smitten by her aspiration so strong
In my meaningless pursuit of a soulful song.

As I clear the smog of my worthless life
In dust lies glorious hatred’s ambitious strife
I leave far behind the lap where I belong
In my meaningless pursuit of a soulful song.

The lines on the forehead conceal a tale
One which my heart found hard to tell
My mind conceives a journey not long
In my meaningless pursuit of a soulful song.

I feel the stalemate around

I feel the stalemate around
The suffocated air
Each soul’s despair
In each slow breath
Inebriated death
I feel the stalemate around…

I feel the stalemate around
In each heart, a tired beat
Trying to run with clumsy feet
Falls with flailing arms
To hope’s hapless charms
I feel the stalemate around…

I feel the stalemate around
In each scheme’s victory
A life pleads a pitiful sorry
Behind each tale of grit and glory
Cry millions, each with a morbid story
I feel the stalemate around…

I feel the stalemate around
As even the death grows slow
Life appears to go down with a bow
As the stage seems to be set
Why does still my life regret?
I feel the stalemate around…

i think of you

Riding the silence of the night
I sit alone and think of you,
I wish to write some moments
The ones I did spend with you.
The glorious sunrises,
The magnificent sunsets,
The cloudy afternoons,
With each my life relates.
The bright halo behind the shadow
Of the sun in the farthest east,
Reminds me your wet face
Covered with innocence’s mist.
As the sun hides beneath
The orange glow of the night,
I think of your smile’s effort
To hide behind with all the might.
Why is it I remember you now?
Is it because you seem to be afar?
Is this more of a dream to dare?
Are you worth for each my scar?
All the moments we had
Melt my life in a drop,
I think of you with each breath
And pray for this heartbeat to stop.
Riding the silence of the night
I sit alone and think of you,
I wish to write some moments
The ones I did spend with you.

the eyes in the valley

Different eyes
Say the same story
In each lies
Dream’s death and glory.

Tiny sparkle of hope
Resides inside each tear
Their silent prayers
Now too hard for me to bear.

Cruelty for justice
Has found its lasting reign
Hatred smirks in my face
On each smile, love does feign.

As the lips turn mum
The bullets begin to bark
In the valley of peace
I am forced to see a picture dark.

I want to walk out
O brother, to soothe your soul
Hold you tight with love
And heal each bleeding hole.

I will stand by you
To fight the bearded bastards
The ash laden scoundrels
The sons of lethargic retards.

Different eyes
Say the same story
In each lies
Dream’s death and glory.

@ 35000 feet

As I gently glide up the skies
As the whining looses itself into a calm
I look outside the window of the tube
And dream to touch the cloud with my arm...
I wish to walk softly through this mist
As the water shall seep into my feet
I shall loiter and caper around here
My kingdom, where I want to reign, at 35000 feet....
Every reason shall I have from here
To look down upon the ruthless world
Far away from the bustling metropolis
Far away from the inhuman unworldly world....
In the laps of these heavenly billows
My spirit regains its lost soul
I see joy singing along my way
Being alive is the virtue I now extol....
I lie down with my back to the stars
And see the emerald waters below
To all the turbulence and the chaos I see
I exclaim aloud, lie low, lie low!!!....
I ride the breeze as it tries to chill
I feel so light on this chariot of rain
No whoosh, no thump, no noise I feel
As I seem to run far away from pain....
I close my eyes and live this dream
A thud, a jump and the tube descends
I am back to the world I don’t want to see
My spirit sags back as again the pain ascends....

the drops...

As a desperate wait before each breath I take,
It makes me wonder, my life, is it a mistake?
Scurrying along from an early morn to a late eve,
Gently, my life oozes out, of the soul’s fine sieve.

The drops that trickle at the end of the day,
Some moments in them reside and forever stay.
I regret to have lost my life in them,
And none but me, is to be there, to blame.

I crave to reach the lap that cares for me,
The longing eyes back home wait for me,
I see my maa as she cooks a simple dinner,
This illusion leaves my soul, a little cleaner.

I want to repay, I want to repay, my soul’s sacrifice
As each day, it died a death on the precipice.
And left me hanging to enjoy this worldly dream
In this world of phantoms, am a sarcophagus’s scream.

As a desperate wait before each breath I take,
It makes me wonder, my life, is it a mistake?
Scurrying along from an early morn to a late eve,
Gently, my life oozes out of the soul’s fine sieve.

o honey,, real sweet honey

I left for my office on a bright sunny day
The wind told me it was wonderful May,
I wished to find a meadow to let myself lay
And have you in my arms, as I had something to say.

O honey… real sweet honey,
I love you like am a nanny,
O honey… real sweet honey.

In the spring of my walk my love did show
I felt like the candle a storm couldn’t blow
As I bounced around on the ground below
The whole world seemed to be going so slow.

O honey… real sweet honey,
I love you like am a lovable pony,
O honey… real sweet honey.

The birds felt jealous of the song I sang
I tried very hard to hide my nasal twang
The cow booed me with moo like a slang
As the big bell of the church, for me rang.

O honey… real sweet honey,
I love you like am little bit Looney,
O honey… real sweet honey.

The sun seemed to burn looking at me
In his own bright light, I think he couldn’t see
I wanted to take you for a cup of tea
As the whole world watches, we both shall flee.

O honey… real sweet honey,
I love you like am George Clooney.
O honey… real sweet honey.

early morning dream

Early morning
When the sun opens his eyes
And the air begins to breath
A new Me never rises up
To break open a gloomy sheath.

As I walk
Through the crowd
And face the sun in the eye
My mind wanders to a place faraway
A thought seems to pass nearby.

All this
This razzmatazz of the world
The hustle and the hurry
Where is all leading me?
To earn, a haunting glory?

As I sit
In this shack of artificial dreams
As life somewhere hides
The tears seem to run dry
As each hope somewhere dies.

I cannot
Gather the strength to stand up
And walk away from all this
It seems, My limbs cannot bear
The burden of a heavenly bliss.

wisdom

I seem to be awake
As lazily I rise
Riding fast, this thin air
I seem to be so wise.
Searching the end of light
At the tip of my myopic vision
Faraway in the distance
Is the realm of dreamy decision?
I close my eyes to focus
But a haze is all I find
Even with eyes wide open
To all I appear so blind.
As my heart beats so fast
As sweat breaks through the skin
I try to calm my fragile self
This is neither doom nor din.
I wish to sleep off again
And let me live the dream
Why return to this world?
So unworldly to me does it seem.
I seem to be awake
As lazily I rise
Riding fast, this thin air
I dream to be no wise.

i dream

Catch me in a dream
When you close your eyes,
Chase my shadow on the cloud
As this happy moment flies.
Let the clouds cover me
When you peep through the sun,
In those hot scalding look of yours
Let my poor spirit of love burn.
Stretch your arms wide
To pluck out the dim stars,
Sprinkle their dust on my face
Make me worthy of your dreamy stares.
Tie me with your loose locks
As I try to hide away in the day,
Make me stay silent with you
As each smile has something beautiful to say.

as the moment draws near

As the moment draws near
It all appears so clear
The journey that you take now
Only leads to me somehow.

I wait with all this love
Praying to heavens above
Dry are my longing eyes
In them my heart crys.

As the moment draws near
It all appears so clear
The journey that you take now
Only leads to me somehow.

As this outstretched arm aches
Fighting to keep the stakes
To hold you close my dear
And bring you as much near.

As the moment draws near
It all appears so clear
The journey that you take now
Only leads to me somehow.

I wish to say something more
And make our story a folk lore
But then I give it all up
As my life your memories usurp.

As the moment draws near
It all appears so clear
The journey that you take now
Only leads to me somehow.

this calm night

In the middle of this calm night,
I wish to have you in my sight,
Embrace you with all my might,
And liberate me of all my plight.

Tonight it may not seem all right,
As I hold you so close, so tight,
In a moment's fleeting flight,
Living forever, in this calm night.

Let us reach a glorious height,
At the end of this calm night,
To achieve a form so light,
To rule this one calm night.

In the middle of this calm night,
I wish to have you in my sight,
Embrace you with all my might,
And liberate me of all my plight.

reasons

I close my eyes
And think of you
To write a poem
Just for you…
I see you flying
As I open my arms,
As if giving in
To my foolish charms…
I see you smiling
To my stupid anecdotes
In the stream of my voice
As your soft form floats…
I see you dancing
In the rhythm of our love
As a soft blush rises
My self recedes into a cove…
I see you by my side
In this journey of fire and ice
Believe all what I say
As if for truth, my words suffice…
I open my eyes
And still think of you
As if I need reasons
To just love you.

The green eyed monster

The air feels heavy
As it settles in each lung,
I pull my breath up
As it settles in each lung.
What is this happening?
What event is occurring?
Is this the green eyed monster?
Which, around me is fastening?

I watch amused
As my spirit is flung,
I hear a whimper
As my spirit is flung.
What is this happening?
What event is occurring?
Is this the green eyed monster?
Which, around me is fastening?

Destiny does a dance
As a bleak oracle is sung,
Future lies desolate
As a bleak oracle is sung.
What is this happening?
What event is occurring?
Is this the green eyed monster?
Which, around me is fastening?

With a poison dart
Is my soul being stung?
I feel so jealous
Is my soul being stung?
What is this happening?
What event is occurring?
Is this the green eyed monster?
Which, around me is fastening?

jealousy

When eyes feel numb
Eyelids heavy,
I am on a high
A state of ecstasy,
I try to figure out
Is this jealousy?

As she smiles
With a stranger,
I seem to drift
A little farther.

As she converses
With a friend,
As in each moment
I see my end.

As her soft gestures
Express themselves,
I tremble with a fear,
Me, being torn in halves.

As she stands
Innocent and pure,
My soul recedes,
Feeling, so insecure.

When eyes feel numb
Eyelids heavy,
I am on a high
A state of ecstasy,
I try to figure out
Is this jealousy?

i go up in smoke

Slowly, gently,
Rising in the stale air,
Relinquishing my claim on life,
I go up in smoke.

What is that burns me?
Is it the dream in my eyes?
Is it the vision of my heart?
Or is it, just my old plain lies.

What is that burns me?
Is it the faith of my soul?
Is it the belief of my being?
Or is it, just luck crying foul.

What is that burns me?
Is it the trust to which I bow?
Is it the feelings I beget?
Or is it, just love, which abandons me now.

Slowly, gently,
Rising in the stale air,
Relinquishing my claim on life,
I go up in smoke.

my worthless gift

As the rays of the morning sun
Break the barrier of the night,
I bring to you this worthless gift
With all my soul’s ensuing might.
These flowers in my hand
Soft and wet with morning dew
In each waft of their fragrance
Floats my love with a crimson hue.
Hold these gentle children of nature
As they breathe their last in your palms,
Cradle them softly with all your care
Guide them to eternal sleep in your arms.
As the smile on their faces fades
As the soul of theirs smoothly recedes,
An innocent prayer slips through my lips
I wish my love with you, with you, only succeeds.
As the rays of the morning sun
Break the barrier of the night,
I bring to you this worthless gift
With all my soul’s ensuing might.